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I have had Pure O for many years and I thought it may be helpful for you to get a perspective of this illness from someone who, like your boyfriend, also struggles with this disease. Pure O is an especially painful form of OCD. If you have ever had a toothache, try and imagine that pain occurring in your brain. What makes it even more unbearable for the sufferer is the realization that his or her thoughts and behaviors are extreme and sometimes, even bizarre. All this leaves the sufferer feeling frustrated, angry and ashamed. Your boyfriend probably knows that if he wants to overcome his irrational fear of going out, he is going to have to bite the bullet and face it head on and try someday to leave the house.
Example being my parents. I look at him and I cry. When just 5 days ago we were good and strong as ever. I think many people can relate to your situation; the doubting often times ruins what would otherwise be a wonderful trip, date or outing with the ones we love. Yes you are completely correct the OCD itself interferes with acceptance by repeatedly presenting doubts. Thank you for sharing your struggle with us. I believe the constant indecision and mental torture is an experience many people can relate to.
A diagnosis of OCD has a positive prognosis if treated with CBT focused on ERP and Mindfulness, and I encourage you to consider treatment so you can live a more fulfilling life with whomever you chose. You made a great point about self care in your post OCD takes full advantage of days when we are not as well rested or not as emotionally secure to play mind games with us.
I wish you the best of luck, take it one day at a time. ROCD can absolutely skyrocket during times of increased commitment. Purchasing a home together, meeting family, or getting engaged are times when ROCD frequently spikes. I completely understand the frustration you must be feeling. Also, OCD and depression frequently occur together, which can make the process of gaining peace all the more difficult.
Best of luck Jasmine. Can you further explain how to attempt Exposure and Response Therapy? Such a great article! Have been suffering from ocd and rocd for quite a bit. I do CBT but still have my awfull moments. Can be quite tough and this article describes it perfectly. Hi i had this in my last relationship but never got help. I always doubted but I just said in my mind I would just stay because it was my choice. It actually ended without anxiety. Plus I know she really loves me and tells me this all the time which then makes me question every thing.
I think about her all the time. It feels so real. Do you recommend anyone in either Australia or England that I can see? I live in oz at the moment but will be moving back to be with her in England soon. In most other instances I would tell myself to let it go, but this article is so great that I feel like it should be grammatically flawless. Thanks for your comment. It is always wonderful to hear that someone has found one of our articles to be helpful. You are absolutely right if you accept uncertainty related to your unwanted thoughts, without compulsively seeking a conclusive response to it, your anxiety will diminish and your relationship will be far less impacted.
And thank you for noting the typo, which has now been fixed. The article has been up for three months, and you are the first person to point it out to us. My situation always seems to be a little bit different from the typical ROCD, in that I constantly worry about whether someone I like, or have an interest in, actually likes me, and this can also occur with friendships.
I constantly feel the need to seek reassurance, to make sure that they actually do like me. Is this something that would fall under the realm of ROCD? That said, some people conceptualize ROCD to include when the sufferer has obsessional doubts about how others feel about them.
Your ultimate goal is to accept that some people may not like you very much or at least not as much as you would like them to. I think that would be a good aphorism for you to keep in mind. I dont know whether I have ROCD this is a big concern for me on top of all the checking, reasurence-seeking and avoiding. I dont enjoy sex anymore, my body has closed down, allways this nagging and pulsing feeling in my abdomen.
When I think about the future I panick, I feel I dont want to live with him, be with him, have children, by a house etc. All these thoughts gives me tremendous anxiety. It is very hard not to think this is just me not so in to him anymore. I read this article again and again, i keep on checking my current feelings for him and how I would feel if we bought a house together or had children etc.
That said, everything you write sounds like textbook ROCD. They simply come to the conclusion that they are no longer as interested as they used to be.
I sat there before a kind therapist and told my secrets to someone for the first time. Known as Pure O, this disorder presents itself without the. Relationship OCD, or ROCD, is a subset of OCD in which a sufferer experiences Pure O: An Exploration into a Lesser-known Form of OCD You've been dating someone for a year and the question of marriage comes up from time to time. An address or date can seem lucky or unlucky so they avoid it or succumb to As difficult as it is to live with OCD or someone who has it, there are benefits to it.
Conversely, people with OCD are tortured by these thoughts precisely because the thoughts are counter to their feelings. Your torment is the strongest evidence there is that you have ROCD. Your goal is to accept that your brain produces these intrusive thoughts, without doing compulsions.
As you have already learned, this constant checking only provides short-term relief. My boyfriend and I have been dating for a over a year. When we decided to move in together or planned a trip abroad he kept delaying it.
This indecisive attitude made me suspicious. So I read his journal. He was with a girl before who cheated on him and they were on and off for 3 years.
He always says it was a depressing period that he really regrets. He said he might have OCD that gives him those dark thoughts. He read those stories and cried and said he was ashamed to talk about it. Thank you for your comment. There is no way to assess your boyfriend via a blog comment from a third party you. He may have OCD, or he may simply be dealing with the complicated feelings and issues we all experience in romantic relationships, including comparing a current lover to a past lover.
Hello there. I realized i was trapped in spirales, mecanisms that i could avoid with a lot of work on myself. I started meditation and it still helps me to go through some of painful waves. Would be great to create a blog with contacts all over the world. For a real love in a real world! Mine started out with intrusive thoughts that contradicted my feelings.
Does this still sound like ROCD? We cannot provide a diagnosis via a blog comment, especially with so little information. That said, the symptoms you describe may indicate ROCD. If you are concerned about this issue and it sounds like you areI encourage you to have a formal assessment with a therapist who specializes in treating OCD.
I also think like Lomax this should be translate to more languages. I was working by myself for all this years without knowing it has a name and a treatment! As for translation, we always encourage readers to use Google Translate. It is less than perfect, but it is a good start . Thanks so much for this article.
I recently started to have a crush on this guy and can tell that he is interested too, but soon after we started to talk I suddenly became unsure and started to feel anxiety because I was unsure.
This time seems different from those times in that I was actually sure that I liked this guy at first. I enjoy talking to him, but always go over and over how I felt afterwards until the anxiety overwhelms me.
Doubt is a normal part of life and relationships. There is no reason that you or anyone needs to know how they feel with total certainty. Feelings are meant to be experienced, not analyzed.
Besides, feelings are not somehow fixed in stone they change all the time. I encourage you to accept doubt and uncertainty, and to proceed in getting to know this guy further. That said, if you ultimately realize that he is not someone with whom you want to develop a deeper relationship, you can then end the relationship. If you avoid exploring possible relationships for fear of having doubts, you will be alone for a very long time.
My husband says he loves me but dosent trust me at all. He regularly checks on me asks me where I was, with whom I went, did I have sex with someone while he was not home. He does not let me carry a mobile calls me dirty names and says since I was married before to someone else and married him I will do the same again. He hits me if I try to prove my self right.
I dont know how to handle this. I know he needs help and I think its genetic because his mother does the same to his father. Guide me. I love him and want to be with him always but not sure how long I can handle all this.
And hitting you is not a sign of love it is evidence of why you would be wise to divorce this man and get as far away from him as as possible. While that may seem difficult in the short term, you will be helping yourself in the long term.
Well, what can I say. I have been suffering with ROCD for a year with my current partner. I had no idea why I was constantly obsessing about my own thoughts and feelings.
I now know I am not the only one suffering. ROCD has given me bad times and the anxiety becomes traumatic and overwhelming. Any psychiatrists etc that I could get in contact with? Thank you for your comments and your kind words.
It is wonderful to hear that our article has helped you feel less alone with ROCD. I have been working with my therapist for months as i have been experiencing similar worries but I could never understand why I felt this way.
Just about everything i read here resonates with me and it is quite relieving to find that this is something that other people experience as well. Thanks for this article. A question for the administrator.
If we want to seek help, should we go to an OCD specialist. Does it have to be a ROCD specialist specifically? The sad truth is that the most therapists are totally clueless about how to effectively treat OCD, and the great majority have never even heard of ROCD. I strongly encourage you to seek treatment with a therapist who specializes in the treatment of OCD.
I have been suffering over a decade on and off from anxiety and OCD. I was officially diagnosed from CBT therapist. After years i tried to do a couple of relationships but always i had intrusive thoughts if i like the girl, if i am attracted to her, if she was moral enough for me.
And now i found a very nice and sweet girl, who is very understanding, very patient and we have many common interests. However from the beginning despite that i found her interesting and sweet i had a spike because in some of her photographs i do not find her so attractive. I am panicked about that and i have all these 8 months constant thoughts about if i like her or not, there is no single day that i do not check her photographs, compare her with other girls on facebook or on the road.
I care about her and sometimes when i am sober something inside me says not to lose her. I experience now depression and i am always thinking if i am truly in love with her i would be happy, without anxiety and i have always have to find her beautiful.Relationship OCD - Common Obsessions and Compulsions
This time is very severe and i try not to lose my hope. Thanks for your comment and kind words. It is important to accept the existence of your unwanted thoughts, and to view them as a normal and expected part of your life. These thoughts are not likely to stop, and the best approach is to accept their existence without giving them any importance in your mind.
They may be irritating, but they are not particularly important they are just thoughts. At the same time, it is crucial that you not do compulsions related to these thoughts. They will do nothing but make your ROCD worse. Thank you for this article! In theory, I do to! But I have had doubts of the kind you describe from the very beginning. They have made it so hard for me to experience joy.
I have had depression and similar doubts regarding career in the past, but otherwise no history of OCD. Is this really ROCD or just a fear of seeing the truth!? This type of obsessional doubt is central to all forms of OCD. Then that is what you should do. Accept the small things after all, everybody has plenty of unlikeable characteristics and flaws.
And accept that doubt is a normal part of OCD and life in general. Hi, I think my husband is suffering from hocd and rocd. He spends hours every day to think about being gay or bisexual. He never had an affair with another man or even fell in love with a guy, althought he always is in fear, this might happen any day.
He started to betray me with another woman, and explained to me in the first place, that he expected me to leave him because of this, so he could finally turn to men. I often think he is keeping up this affair to cause as much trouble to our relationship which has no erotic component at the moment as possible. I still love him and try to convince him to seek treatment from a CBT therapist.
Did you ever hear from a rocd sufferer, who had an affair to damage his family? That said, I am not comfortable making a diagnosis via a third party you on the internet. If your husband is maintaining an ongoing extramarital relationship despite the damage it is doing to your relationship and your children, then it seems to me that his possibly having OCD should not be your primary concern.
So I encourage you to focus less on whether or not he has OCD, and more on whether you want to stay married to a man who so blithely hurts his you and your children. Thank you for writing this article. It helps me understand more about my condition. Problem is that in my country there is no information about OCD with mental rituals, just physical OCD when you for example wash your hands 50 times in order to feel clean.
That has really helped me in my struggle. I hope therapists in my country will start talking about this issue. Unfortunately, as you have already learned, many mental health providers around the world including here in the US have the extremely limited and inaccurate belief that OCD is only about compulsive cleaning, checking, and arranging. As a result, many people struggling with variants of Pure O are unable to find effective help.
Hi, I am having panic attacks about my relationship and I get the feeling that they only way to stop the attacks is to leave my partner. Being scared after moving across the world for a relationship is actually a pretty reasonable response. After all you just moved across the world for someonegiving up all of the things that made your life what it was. This is a courageous, and scary, thing to do. That said, throwing the relationship away quickly because you are experiencing anxiety would be a drastic over-reaction.
A better solution would be to accept that you are experiencing normal doubts, and possibly ROCD doubts as well, and to not assume that these doubts automatically mean that you must flee. I pretty much checked all the boxes for the Overt, Avoidant, Reassurance Seeking and Mental Compulsions minus just a few. These sorts of questions are extremely common in ROCD. That said, I think trying to resolve the matter by discussing your obsessions with your current partner has the potential to be disastrous for three reasons.
Simply put, nobody wants to hear how someone else would be a better partner than them, and I would not be surprised at all if she were to eventually become quite upset by this discussion.
Second, these questions that your mind is generating cannot possibly be answered.
Love is not about having certainty, and seeking certainty in any way is a compulsive and counter-productive waste of time and energy. Third, when you discuss these matters with your current girlfriend, you are actively doing a compulsion, which is likely to make matters worse. A better option would be to seek treatment with a therapist who specializes in Great article!
However, a question arises: what is the most likely case of a young woman with ROCD who says that it is the man with whom she has a close relationship the one that expresses doubts about their relationship what I would call Reverse Avoidance and despite this insists om her love and despair about being unloved? If I am misinterpreting that, please let me know.
If my interpretation is correct, it simply sounds like both of them have ROCD. For 14 months now. I almost allways have a negative response which hurts me so bad. But as I said no intrusive thoughts? I cry all the time, seldom happy anymore, loads of meds. Is this ROCD? Trying to distinguish between thoughts and feelings is an unnecessary, yet very common, aspect of OCD.
And the fact that you are doing compulsive checking and reassurance seeking about your relationship furthers my belief that this is likely ROCD. You would just want to leave the relationship, without all of the compulsive checking and reassurance seeking and torture. I constantly dream bad dreams of me preparing to leave or finding someone else allways with the same lump in my stomach present in the dream aswell as in daily life.
I want them to go away I want to be with my boyfriend without the thoughts and feelings. That this isnt intrusive thoughts, just how I really feel and that Im in denial, false, ruining his life. I Love him or do I? Mindfulness every day, trying to descrese checking, reassurenceseeking etc. But the fact that you find these thoughts so tortuous is pretty good evidence that you actually have ROCD.
Of course you do, but that is an unrealistic expectation. We humans do not get to control what we think and feel.
That said, it is not the therapy that needs to work, it is the individual with OCD who needs to do the work of therapy. While therapy is almost never easy, research has consistently found that ERP is the most effective approach to treating OCD. And that said, I think it is also important to note that your goal should not be to eradicate the thoughts, but rather to find an appropriate way to manage them and respond to them without taking them seriously and without doing compulsions.
Thanks for the article, it helps to know im not the only one. I live in constant fear of hurting anyone i may be with because of ROCD and doubts i get.
Ive had everykind of ocd you can think of, handwashing, harm, eveything. But this one is starting to get worse. I used to fall head of heels for girls, but then a relationship i had that immediatly started with doubt because of a difference in religion and i hadent been in a relationship for 4 years prior to that messed me up completley. Or at least i think, because now anytime im with a girl i get doubt immediately because im worried if she is the one as i initially thought the relationship that screwed me up was.
Im currentley seeing a new girl and idk what to do. Im atracted to her and like but i wonder how much, i Its really hard to know the difference between the ocd and real feelings is my biggest problem i think.
I feel like throwing up and cant eat. Idk if i should tell her my ocd story, Just break up with to tske the stress away or keep fighting and hope it works out. I dont wanna hurt her. Idk if were too diff. Also, i game, she doesnt, she drinks and smokes e cig i dont. We have other stuff in common tho.
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Any advice? Simply put, there is absolutely no reason to quantify feelings, and attempting to do so is a compulsion that will make your obsessions much worse. They are simply feelings to be experienced. Uncertainty is not the enemy OCD is.
If there are differences that truly matter to you i. But to have your choice based on OCD would set a precedent that would likely lead to long term relationship difficulties in the future. This article does help me somewhat so i appreciate that i have found it.
I have been with my partner for 6 years now and before my first panic attack a year ago i never once questioned us and i knew i wanted to spend my life with him. I cant tell if its just that i have got the anxiety under control or if the thoughts are actually true.
I have been seeing a therapist who doesnt know much about ROCD and as im not even sure i have it i dont know how to move forward. I want this relationship, i really really want to be with my partner and have no complaints about him. I get so upset that i ever question us when i used to be so confident in us. That sounds like anxiety to me. Anxiety does not only manifest as panic attacks. And the fact that you are writing a comment on this this blog article further suggests that you are experiencing considerable anxiety about the thoughts.
After all, if you were not upset and anxious about the thoughts, you would not care enough to write about how upset you are. Of course not! Thank you so much for this article. This has been going on over a year with the anxiety recently back to the fore after having a baby 3 months ago. I get palpitations and sick stomach daily because of my thoughts. For 8 yrs, I was so happy with him but this last year I constantly analyse how I feel around him, and check online for reassurance to get back loving feelings.
I was recently diagnosed with ocd. I am getting CBT but progress is slow. I even doubt if I have ocd!!! I just want my child to grow up with 2 loving parents together. What do you think?
Everything you have written sounds like a textbook case of ROCD. I have no idea who is providing you with CBT, but it is actually a fairly short-term approach to therapy.
If you diligently do the assignments that your therapist should be giving you at every session, then you are likely to see significant gains within months of once-a-week treatment. And if your therapist is not giving you assignments, then they likely have no idea what they are doing, and you will need a new therapist.
Hey there! I never told any of my previous partners about my issue because I was terrified they would not understand and leave me. Well, I am now with someone that really adores me and my ROCD is starting to really get me worked up. I really need some help with this because I so badly want to be happy with him.
I am not always miserable but often times I am stuck in my head. I have explained to him that I have ocd and that I am going to be getting help for it soon because I am tired of being depressed and anxious.
He seems to be supportive of that. I need some assurance. I used to spend hours online looking for explanations of what love is and what it is like to be in a relationship that healthy I need help. You said it perfectly you often times get stuck in your head.
This is a perfect description of OCD. And analyzing your thoughts and feelings in an effort to get assurance that you like your boyfriend is a perfect example of a mental compulsion that will only make things worse. Your goal is to accept that, because you have ROCD, your brain will continue to manufacture questions about your feelings and your relationship. Instead of engaging with those questions, I encourage you to let them sit unanswered in your head, and to instead get on with the business of being in a relationship.
These questions do not require answers, and attempting to answer them will just make you miserable. If you continue to struggle with these doubts, I encourage you to seek treatment with a theorist who specializes in treating OCD. Just thinking about it makes me sad.
Some days I get really depressed. When I see him I just feel miserable because I miss what we had.
And sometimes I am happy and that worries me. And while that feeling is quite wonderful, I think it is unrealistic to expect that it will last forever.
It means you have moved beyond the early stage of a relationship, and that you now have an opportunity to develop a deeper level of intimacy. Analyzing your feelings will not help you. I am confident that if you allow yourself to enjoy your boyfriend instead of analyzing your feelings, you will find that a deeper, more meaningful relationship is possible. Recently I moved to uni, and my boyfriend is also in the same city.
The start of uni was hard as i obsessed whether he still loved me and wanted me due to my own insecurities, but never questioned my feelings for him- i have actually distinctively felt more love and happiness for him the past month. However, last weekend something triggered in my head, and following that we had a pretty nasty argument, which we sorted out, but which has sparked my ROCD. When i tell him about my doubts, i just feel inconsolable.
I just want this to go and be how i was almost a week ago!. The problem here is not the emotional distance you are feeling, but your over-analysis of that distance. My suggestion is that you accept that feelings are not constant, that they change all the time, and to stop analyzing any unwanted feelings you experience.
I also encourage you to not discuss your concerns about your feelings with your boyfriend, as doing so is likely an effort on your part to resolve your discomfort. A better solution would be to accept that you are uncomfortable, and to not seek a resolution which will come in due time if you are patient.
I met a girl through friends about a year ago. I knew when I saw my now partner of 11 months that there was something really special. I knew I loved her but was really scared, and after about 3 months, we told each other we loved each other.
Everything you write sounds like textbook ROCD. Young love can be scary for many people, as the idea of making a commitment to someone can feel overwhelming. It may be possible that the homophobia you have experienced in your own home has perhaps added a layer to your doubts. You can find blogs that say just about anything! I encourage you to accept your doubts as the price of having ROCD and having a relationship.
Just accept the presence of the thoughts without viewing them as meaningful or accurate. Think of them as mental static, and get on with loving your girlfriend. Great article. However, my anxiety has been a direct response to things my partner said and did. It had not been an issue previously in life.
The relationship was beautiful and smooth for a long time, until I discovered something she had done behind my back. Something she had numerous chances to address and even played down. I felt I was deceived about specific actions she took and I have been hurt by attitudes she used to direct towards me and regarding certain events.
This made me question her motives for certain behaviour, with me and with others. Still, I accept not everyone would get anxious. I display some of the behaviours listed above; I question if my love for her is real if I was deceived about who she is and so I search for certainty about who she is. I ruminate over conversations and events, then feel guilt about causing her emotional pain when I express anxiety.
Recently, something else came out that was questionable at the very least and ran contrary to core ideas I had about her, based on strong behaviours she displayed. Having ROCD does not inoculate someone from choosing a partner who is dishonest. Someone can have ROCD and be in a relationship with a person who acts badly.
As you noted, your anxiety is in direct response to specific things your partner has done that you find problematic and dishonest, and you did not have these doubts prior to your partner acting badly. When a person acts badly, it is quite reasonable to question whether or not you want that person in your life. Of course, if someone has ROCD and has a dishonest partner, the decision to continue or end a relationship may be more difficult.
I see evidence of you very reasonably doubting the character of your dishonest partner, and wondering about whether you want to stay with her. Only you can decide what is acceptable to you. This article has really struck a chord with me, thank you. I am constantly over analyzing our relationship since the first day I felt nothing for him when I tried to initiate sex do I love him?
Why am I not sexually attracted anymore? I felt so much love for my boyfriend in the beginning and knew I wanted to have a future with him. This has been a heartbreaking experience and has consumed me altogether. I feel like I need to break up but get upset at the thought of it, like a greater power is controlling all this. I am trying not to tell my boyfriend how i feel anymore as i feel i am mainly looking for reassurance now that i do love him and we will be okay.
Does this sound like ROCD? Feelings are not set in concrete they change all the time. Analyzing your feelings in an attempt to verify that you still love your boyfriend will not provide the peace you are looking for. Instead, conceptualize love as a choice one makes, rather than a feeling one experiences.
Also, discussing your doubts with your boyfriend likely is an attempt at seeking reassurance, which is also doomed to failure. I have had this form of OCD in the past with my ex-boyfriend. Now I need to know if this is a form as well. You see I have occasionally been dating a friend casually. But there is this other friend who liked me when we were in high school that I felt bad about turning him down the way I did.
So I decided to try for him. I thought it was a good idea at first then immediately regretted it because I did not feel comfortable. For a while I obsessed over it then got over it since I still like this other guy. Leaving them there seems to help sometimes but not always. This does not sound like ROCD. It sounds like you are somewhat interested in him, but not enough to have a real relationship. I am not hearing that in your comment. Not all relationship doubts are evidence of ROCD.
It is quite normal to have doubts about your feelings for people, especially those for whom you have some interest, but not enough to proceed with a more intimate relationship. I suspect many most? All that being said, it sounds like you have had ROCD in the past, so perhaps you are more prone to doubting your feelings.
In any case, your goal should be to accept that you have these doubts about this guy, without assuming they mean anything important. I am in a two year relationship now, and i am 20 years old.
Everything was normal with my partner until 6 months ago. I cheated him, not physically, but it was still a betrayal. I loved him, how could i do something like that? He forgave me, but after that i started feeling guilty and ruminating, got a depression. A mistake does not define me, but these thoughts appear out of a sudden in my head, they rip me from the inside. I am always thinking that i want to have sex with other people, that i dont love my partner, that he doenst attract me.
I cant focus on school or even on having fun with family or friends. So my question is, do you think this is ROCD? But it is important to note that there is nothing unusual in finding people other than your partner attractive and thinking about sex with them.
It is unrealistic to expect yourself to never have these types of thoughts. In monogamy, the issue is not what you think, but rather what you choose to do.
That said, only you can decide what kind of life you want. If you want monogamy, you will almost certainly need to accept the presence of inevitable thoughts about sex with others. Conversely, if you want to have sex with others, then you will need to accept that you are not really interested in living a monogamous lifestyle.
It is a choice you need to make for yourself. Finally I broke it off. I was single then for 2 years, having a few casual relationships, but always with this fear in the back of my head that I would ruin something if it went further. Then the fear of not knowing whether I was straight or gay kicked in.
Then, that I am just not able to be in relationships. Finally, I concluded I must not like women. I must have repressed this and been conditioned. At this point I started building a case. I dress too well. I am sensitive. But then I would think, okay, I have never been sexually attracted to men so was this repressed? I have started seeing someone. From the beginning I have been plagued with doubt and anxiety. Hating myself for not feeling enough, and questioning everything. I was on the point of ending the relationship when I came across this article and your articles about HOCD.
I have always just taken it as something different about me and never considered it was actually treatable or even an illness. Unwanted thoughts about sex with people of the same gender does not make one gay. Likewise, emotional sensitivity, not liking sports, and dressing well do not make one gay, nor are they the sole province of women and gay men. If these issues continue to plague you, then I encourage you to seek out treatment with a therapist who specializes in treating OCD.
I recently found this article when looking up doubting relationships. I have suffered from OCD and anxiety for as long as I can remember. I love my boyfriend dearly and he is my best friend. My OCD about our relationship has been everything from I am worried I am not attracted to him to what if he is not the one for me. It makes me physically ill to think about and is constantly on my mind recently.
We are now back together but the thoughts still haunt me. When I am with him I cannot relax because I am constantly worried. I often feel guilty for having a good time with him because I worry I am leading him on. It is hard to constantly doubt my relationship.
It is something I know that I have to determine but I feel like I cannot see clearly. We had talked about getting engaged soon but I cannot imagine getting engaged with these horrible thoughts going on, it would feel like a lie and I am worried I will not be happy and that it will trigger more anxiety.
As noted above, compulsions in ROCD and other Pure O variants of OCD with others, or searching dating sites to see if you are attracted to others. . It's always great to hear that one of our articles has helped someone. Learn how dating someone with OCD can present additional challenges as well as provide opportunities for growth. Whether it's your partner, parent, child or close friend, loving someone with OCD requires patience, understanding and education. It will help.
The problem is not these thoughts per se, but rather your viewing them as important and meaningful. Your goal should be to accept the presence of these and any thoughts that your brain produces, without assuming they mean something important, and without reacting to them. They are just cognitive static that requires no response on your part.
Hithis article really helped me especially in my situiation with my boyfriend who has OCD. We havent met yet but we have plans to meet this year. We know people might judge us because od the relationship we have but what important for me is I definitely love him and I know he feels the same way too.
He said he understands me as long as I am willing to marry himand I said yed but we need to settle all things first. Help me. It is important to note that people who have OCD can also have other issues that are not necessarily part of their OCD. For example, one can have OCD and also be an alcoholic or a drug addict. His pressuring you to marry him when you have never even met him is a HUGE issue that indicates the potential for HUGE problems ahead if you marry him under pressure.
You should not even consider marrying this man until you have spent considerable time getting to know him face to face. I have a different style of ROCD.
I have partner focused ROCD where I view my partners sexual history as a reflection on my own self worth. It is completely irrational at totally OCD but has been the focus of my life for the last 8 years. For example a woman will tell me that she has had sex with X amount of men.
Then I will picture her having sex with this many men and wonder how many men other peoples wives have had sex.
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And compare my partner to them. I will ask myself how could I be with a woman that has had sex with that many men and what type of man does that make me. If the woman never tells me how many men she has had sex with, I will fill in the blanks and still obsess with her sexual history.
My obsessive thoughts have two components. One is the yuck factor of picturing my partner having sex with other men. The other is the self esteem factor that by having sex with other men, my partner is a less valuable mate and therefore it is a blow to myself worth. Its been a tough mental illness to deal with and I have broken up with some very remarkable women as a result of it.
There is nothing unique or different about your specific obsessions. What she did before meeting you is her life, and it has nothing to do with you or your worth. Finally, allow me to note that breaking up with someone due to your obsessional thoughts is a perfect example of a compulsion. And as you can see, in the long run, this compulsion has not worked the obsessions merely re-appeared in your later relationships.
A better solution would be to not ask your partners about their sexual history, and accept the unknown. It coincides with both of us graduating from school and bringing our relationship into this next wildly uncertain phase of our lives. It breaks into every morning and makes it so hard to think clearly.
I lost the ability to concentrate on anything else because these intrusive thoughts are so urgent they need to be addressed, because they directly undercut this thing that I value so so so dearly. Reading this and all the comments has brought me my first calm in weeks. In fact, these thoughts are just thoughts, and your effort to address these thoughts is the real problem. The thoughts may feel urgent and important, but they are nothing but mental static.
I have been with the same woman for the past nine years, and I love her deeply. But I have no certainty that I will love her tomorrow or that she will love me. Behavior is far more important than feelings, and how you behaviorally live out your valuing of your partner is the real measure of your relationship.
I wrestle with this, and eventually, my feelings shut off and I break up. Prior to those 5 years, I got my heart broken a lot and was broke up with a lot. Now we live together and are expecting a son in June. But then I have connection again.
As well, an individual with Pure O OCD finds it difficult to accept that thoughts might be Would I be faithful to him if Matthew McConaughey asked me on a date? in which circumstances, if any, I would want and/or need to kill someone. Extreme sex OCD: Pure, the TV drama that's set to smash taboos Someone was burning bracken and the air was mossy. . I'd browse profiles on lesbian dating sites, trying to imagine myself kissing each stranger's face. It's confusing. Sometimes being strong and patient means putting up with someone else's differences. Other times, being strong and patient means allowing.
This is a consistent pattern. In the beginning, it was classic OCD. I think? What about numbness and depression? Does this accompany OCD?? Also, I hVe been a consistent worrier my whole life. The fact that you have been fixated on other obsessions when you have not been in a relationship strongly suggests that you have OCD, and that ROCD is just the most potent manifestation of OCD for you. Infatuation is just a feeling, while love is an action that one can choose even after the infatuation period has passed.
Infatuation feels incredibly intoxicating, but if you spend your life pursuing that feeling, you will merely bounce in and out of relationships, as that feeling will invariably fade, leaving you bereft. And yes, numbness and depression sometimes accompany OCD, but they also sometimes accompany life. I myself have gone to a therapist who specializes in CBT and other therapies but is still doing talk therapy, and thinks this is a problem from my past.
Hopefully I will be able to let this go before it destroys the best thing that ever happened to me Thank you for an uplifting read. As you note, this is a form a reassurance seeking, which will only make things worse. Your goal is to accept the uncertainty and anxiety that accompanies your unwanted doubts, without looking for ways to ameliorate your discomfort.
Finally, allow me to note that, if your therapist claims to specialize in Cognitive Behavioral Therapy CBTbut she focuses on exploring your past with traditional talk therapy, then she is not a CBT specialist. Exploring your past will not alleviate ROCD and is a waste of your time and money. Thank you for your reply, yes I can see its becoming a problem, although i dont check as much cause im starting to be able to relax again and sometimes it eases right off and i am now so much more cuddly and conected again then comes back in very sly ways.
Thanks Heather. That said, one thing I am sure it is not is some magical feeling of a crush. Love and ROCD can strike pretty much anytime. You need to seek treatment with someone who actually specializes in treating OCD. Do you have any advice or information for the partner of someone that seems to have ROCD? My advice for dealing with a partner with ROCD, who acknowledges their ROCD, who repeatedly breaks up with you, and yet refuses to get help for their ROCD is simple you need to decide if you are willing to continue being on an emotional roller coaster.
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Only you can make that decision. But so long as your partner does not seek help, they are likely to continue with this cycle of breaking up with you, retracting the break up, and then breaking up with you again. Unfortunately, this is quite normal in ROCD. I am in the same situation but he does not know about ROCD.
How can I break the news to him without him getting upset? He breaks up with me but never let go completely and I know he is a good man with a lot internal conflicts. I found this article and He fits the profile perfectly! I would like to help him and us. As you and countless others have learned, it is quite difficult to be the partner of someone with ROCD. My suggestion to you is the same as that which I gave to Joey if your partner is able to see the issue, but unwilling to get help, then you need to focus on taking care of yourself.
If he gets upset rather than openly discussing the matter, then it may be time to let go and move on. Oh my goodness! I read this article and immediately felt relief. I am in a long distance relationship with an amazing partner. He has all the qualities I want in a partner and it seemed like from one night to the other I developed rocd. Are we compatible? Is he the ONE? I live in Tallahassee, Fl and I want to see someone about this.
Thanks so much for this article!! These questions are just typical ROCD doubts, and they do not require an answer. So step number one is to stop trying to find an answer to these questions. It is also important that you stop compulsively monitoring and checking how you feel about your boyfriend.
When you have these thoughts, your job is to accept their presence in your mind without taking them seriously and without trying to find an answer.
Hi Tom! Thank you for your response I really appreciate it. My goal is to accept the thoughts and just let them be. I desperately want to break free from this anxiety because I do not want it to ruin something so good. I was so sure of spending the rest of my life with him before this anxiety hit. Thanks for your help! I will look into it. I have read this article for about 20 times now.
These questions have haunted me for more than 6 months now. I have been with two therapists that have diagnosed me straight with OCD. My dear girlfriend she is a great person and supported me all these months and I have recently decided to get married and yet I still feel anxiety on a daily basis and get haunted by thoughts all the time.
I have to reassure myself that I love her, that I have OCD and that we will be fine more than 50 times a day.
How do I know it is ego-dystonic? I want to get rid of this anxiety and enjoy my relationship, life and engagement. Do you have any advice for me? All of the thoughts you mention are textbook ROCD thoughts. That said, I see a number of ways that you could better manage these thoughts. I think a better goal would be to accept that you have these thoughts and that they make you anxious. They are not going to magically disappear, so it is better to make peace with them. Paradoxically, by accepting the presence of these unwanted thoughts and the anxiety they cause, you will likely be less anxious.
I think that when you re-read the article you are trying to get assurance that you actually have ROCD, and that the thoughts are ego-dystonic. I suggest that you refrain from reading the article. This is a compulsion that will make your ROCD worse in the long-run. Hi, thanks for this article.
Yet, this is clearly not what i want. I want to love him. I want to be happy with him. I want the feelings back. This sounds like a perfect example of an ego-dystonic thought to me. Thanks a lot for your answer. I have another question actually. When I get those thoughts, my compulsions are to read compulsively tons of articles on OCD.
But when I try to stop giving in to the compulsions, I feel quite low and depressed. But it sounds to me like you vacillate between feeling certain that you do not love him, and moments in which you either have doubts, or feel that you do love him. Also, this is the fourth time you have posted a comment on this article, which sounds to me like a compulsive quest for certainty about whether you love him or not.
If you were consistently certain that you do not love him, you would not feel compelled to repeatedly read this article and by your own admission, lots of other OCD articlesand to post comments about your feelings towards your partner. Anyways,I decided that I was going to ignore my doubts and it helped me. My sister encouraged me to date him so I gave it a shot.
One week after, I felt comfortable and all these intense feelings came back. But what if the reason I was hesitant at first is because it was my intuition telling me not to date him? Can you give me some clarity? The simple truth is that a certain amount of uncertainty is pretty much the norm in relationships, especially in the beginning stages of a relationship.
I spent the rest of the night creating scenarios to self-assess my love for him. Would I love him if he gained pounds? Would I be sad if he died in a car accident?
Would I be faithful to him if Matthew McConaughey asked me on a date? During the rest of that week, I was physically present, but my head was somewhere else, still creating scenarios about my relationship. I did not touch the rest of my meal and I cried all the way home. The next morning, I broke up with BF because I felt I was clearly not committed enough to our relationship. Several weeks later, BF and I decided to go through with a Hawaiian vacation despite having split up.
All my unwanted and intrusive thoughts, questions, and crazy scenarios seemed to stop. I finally had some relief from weeks of mental torture. The following seven years were filled with OCD-like thoughts and many episodes of anxiety. During Winter and Spring ofI saw a therapist who was unable to properly diagnose my condition and teach me the required skills to control my anxiety. I continued to suffer unwanted, intrusive and tortured thoughts on a regular basis. I will share with you a few of these anxiety driven thoughts and actions:.
In my next article, I will share the events that led me to drive myself to a local hospital in the middle of the night in April She is a volunteer Board Member for Anxiety Canada and agreed to share her experience with OCD to increase awareness about this disorder and to encourage others who suffer in silence to seek help because they need and deserve to get treatment.
I imagined an extremely violent scenario in which self-defense could lead to the death of my aggressor. In my mind, the only possible conclusion was that it was only a question of time before I would turn into a murderer. I once dreamt that I was in a relationship with one of my closest girl friends. I did not eat and barely slept for two days because I interpreted my dream as a signal that I had changed sexual orientation and I did not know how to handle the change.
During the second half of my first pregnancy, I experienced false contractions that made me worry that the baby would be born prematurely. I started to look at the clock excessively and whenever all the numbers were the same eg.